i just cant wait to dance later.
been trying to study..
i'm glad i started maths, and boy!! my brains are gonna explode.
am tryin out maths with no help, trying to figure it out. i hope i can make it man..
and studying makes you snack BIG TIME!!
gosh, i'm gonna be phat again!



left her thoughts ♥ 1:42:00 PM

wakeboarding yest was UBBERRR fun!!!
love it love it love it!
purple and eugene are my official wakeboarding khaki!!
and i can do 180 and butterslide.
and for my next attempt : 1) 360 - 360 turn
2) jump

so exciting!! and for my next wakeboarding session, 18th and 19 th August. =)
i really do miss purple, i miss the times in poly, we used to hang out, share our joys and pains tgt.
we've seen each other through the worst times of our lives and we've seen the happiest times too.
really love this girl too.
i'm so glad we're in the same school again! and we have the same loves and she's dancing too!!
she just started hip hop. so i'll see her in dance! yay! i can have all in one!
well, i like dragon boat too.. but the committment that it requires, leaves me with not much time to do my stuff..
i have another option though, to join EA Dragons. Their trainings are only on sun! tempting, but i dont know how to tell the sim dragon boaters.. dont want them to hate me for leavin them for another team..

urgh! i'm in a dilemma...



left her thoughts ♥ 11:10:00 AM

cheryl's aching all over!!
Danced from 5 to 7pm and rushed to dragon boat training till 9pm.
this is a lil too crazy, but the aches feel pretty shiok.
dance was soild! good work out. am happy!

i cant wait for sea training on sun!
going for 2 sessions.
9am-12pm for girls training, 3pm to 5pm for eugene's dragon boat club training.
i feel good!
not that i'm keeping myself busy, but i feel that i'm healthy finally!
gene kept commenting that i'm too tanned!! =(
but its only 2 weeks and i've been in the sun like for only 4 timess! not alot what?
was browsing my photos. i think i'm a lil black..
gene, you may be right! but maybe i'm just 5 times darker then i was originally was.
you know i was fair like hell!
maybe you're just not used to it la!!







left her thoughts ♥ 10:29:00 AM

i have no idea what happened last night.
It was supposed to be a happy girls night out with the 2 darling Cheryls, but apparently, something went wrong somewhere.

the night was never meant to end up that way...

just 2 flaming lambos and i was a goner.
the only thing i remembered was walking out to the grass patch, and i have no recollection of the rest of the night.

i'm really gonna stay away from drinks. i cant drink for nuts.
1 drink is enough! i hate hangovers...
alcohol makes you go crazy and i think i lost it for awhile.

i really really pray doubly hard that i didnt do anything wrong last night that i'd regret.
If i did,please let me know.
To whom it may concern(i really dont know who is involved) i'm sorry if i offended you last night with my actions or words..
my sincere apologies to those i've cause much inconvenience to.
i swear it will never happen again. and i will cry no more.
its the last time, i promise.
=)


i'm looking forward to dance and gym session later.



left her thoughts ♥ 10:20:00 AM

you know what's the best thing about dragon boating? its the team work that i really admire..
thou super tiring but i think its worth it..
and i'm like pretty tan as compared to last time.

i wonder if i'm going to stay in dragon boating...
i do enjoy it, but i still love dancing..
i hate to have to choose either one cause it sucks to have to give one up.
till the day i have to choose one, i'll just enjoy every minute of it!!

school sucks, lectures are damn tiring, i cant absorb anything at night!!!
crashed mornin lecture last week and i could learn better!!
but i'm back to work this week.. and its my last week before i break to study.

anyway, i guess i havent said this to my dad in a long long time, but nevertheless,
i dont want to keep it inside me.



This is to my dad :

Daddy, you know i love you deep down inside even though i have never really told you.
I treasure every moment spent with you, and i really do love to have you by my side.
I know there isnt much time left and i really do want you to hold on and stay with me..
i want you to see me through my university days and the most important day of my life,my wedding day.
Please stay with me a little longer. i need you. i really do.

I know bout your deepest secret, i chose to keep it to myself because i want our family to stay together. I have no siblings and if anything were to happen to this family, i'd be lost.
I forgive you daddy, for everything you have done. I was extremely hurt and disappointed when you left me home alone to meet her.I know men stray sometimes, but i know mum loves you with all her heart and she sacrificed everything just to take good care of you. Please dont hurt her or me anymore. i love you dad, thats why i'm hurting inside.
Daddy, i'll trust you once more, because you have seen the love mum has been showering upon you for the past year.
My life hasnt been smooth sailing and sometimes,i feel so vulnerable.
Many times,i was on the verge of breaking down,but i still stood strong.
Dad,even though i feel like giving up, i am still staying strong for you.

I'm sorry i haven been there because of work and school. I have never told you the reason for me working, because i do not want you to feel bad. But i'll support myself in every way i can.
I'm sorry i haven been the nicest daughter either. But dad, i hope my little gestures do assure you that i care. I know i dont usually show it, but i hope you know that i'm always praying for you.
Please be strong dad. We are strong for you too..
You know, mum has been crying sometimes too? because she doesnt know what she'd do if you leave us. she needs you, more then i do.

Daddy, you're the best dad ever.. I can lose everything in my life, but I dont want to lose you.
i hope i can continue to be strong... but i know someday, i will fall.. and i hope you'll still be there to catch me.


With love,
your daughter.



left her thoughts ♥ 12:36:00 AM

omg, i think i wont be able to lift my hands up tomorrow!!
just came back from dragon boat training..
and considering this lazy girl here hasnt been exercising..
running and gyming was a killer to her..

i finally know how the dragon boat girls train with weights....
after more then an hour of gyming (weight lifting)..
my veins started popping out..
and bench press sets!!! my assests wil become liabilities!!!
nooooooo............... - looks at her humble hills-
other then the gyming session, i'm pretty much good with dragon boating.
running long distance is alright.. but gyming.. i can feel my arms getting bigger..
i dont want to be like how i was in Year 1 when i chiong-ed weights for my 1st fighting competition.
its scary!! the guys there are like HOW STRONG!!!
their muscles are like *(@_@)* ....
i'm like trying to imagine myself with muscles, looking very tan and dancing !!!!
-shivers-.. super weird....

Dragon boat team bonding session this sat at sentosa and sea training on sun..
crazy man...

am glad i caught up with ALL the CHERYLS and charlotte!!! finally we are back tgt!!
=)
love you girls too!!!
i wanna dance again!!! i miss latin dance.. and there's a KL Dancesports championship coming up!!! I WANNA COMPETE!!!!!... I WANT A PARTNER!!!!!
cant dance without one... sighs

anyway i'm falling asleep now! guess its gonna be an early night for me!!



left her thoughts ♥ 11:26:00 PM

This post is going to be my very random thoughts and its not going to make sense...

i'm currently totally in love with Jason Mraz's I'm yours. its addictive to the max.

i cant drink! i drank a lychee martini last night and i was like err.. high?
joshua had to like prop my head up with his hand. it was hilarious man.
hey josh! i'm glad you're gonna study once again. dont give up no matter what alright?
i wonder how's his sis doing.. been 5 years since i last saw josh's sis,esther.. if anyone remembers her, she used to go mad monks!! the havoc days !!!

Dragon Boat training today. am feeling lazy, not in the mood to run and gym.
i'm still skeptical bout it, i dont want to be a she-man...
i shall KIV for now... till 5pm


And... i think i want to be ignorant!!!! like how i used to be, the lesser i know, the better.
truths unfolding, cold hard facts, am pretty much speechless..
i dont know how to put the pieces together.
its like a 10,000 piece puzzle, somehow i get to see the picture on the box but i cant piece the jigsaw pieces together.

one word to describe.... C O M P L I C A T E D .

this is far worse then my bridging for maths.. more mind boggling and head spinning questions..




left her thoughts ♥ 11:31:00 AM

Merser started work this week at the concourse.
yay! i've got another lunch/walking to the mrt buddy!
5 precious years of being in the same sec school and the same class in poly.
love this girl to bits.

work is mundane as usual, nothing much to look forward to other then pay day!
i think i'm gonna get my crumpler bag soon. =)
like FINALLY after months of debating.

and i just realised that going to town at night on a weekday is bloody boring.
urgh! singapore needs more nightlife!!!
-_-'zz

i cant wait for the sentosa outing on Sat, and chilling out with Pats, Viv, Helms and Azahar. its been quite awhile since i last hung out with them as a group.
Pat's going back to aussie in 2 weeks time...thats fast!! she just came back on sat. oh and Pats my pri sch mates,tgt with viv.


alright, am off to sch now. guys, i'm really alright. thanks for checking on me.. i'm really good. =)









love this girl to bits. =)



left her thoughts ♥ 7:22:00 AM

At this current moment, i don't know what to say or how to feel.
But i thank you for letting me know things that i wished i hadnt knew.
But, carrying on would definitely not be the best option because i'd be the one suffering in the end.
Well....I have no idea if i should feel sad or relief.
But all i know is that i'm greatly disappointed and i cant help but feel robbed of my feelings.
I never imagined him to be who he is.
well, i agree with what you said that i finally saw his true colours. Not exactly the most pleasant one, but well, at least i've seen it.And considering that i've thought sooo highly of him all these while. I think i've just wasted my time, but its never too late. =)
I wished i've heeded their warning and advice right from the start,even before anythin started..but apparently, their words fell on deaf ears.And i can bet on a million bucks that my friends will spam me a million " I told you so! see what you've landed yourself into" .. i'm sorry guys! i know i'm stubborn. But its alright! you'll never know it until you've experienced it yourself. =)

Thanks for comforting me, but i know that i'm doing alright and life goes on.
seriously, i'm pretty much lost for words and i'm just staring at the comp with a blank mind.

i just feel that it was all just a lie and a false front. sorry, i cant help feeling this way.
but i wouldnt deny that i was happy. but that happiness that i had experienced, was it all just a show to make me happy???
you have everyone fooled.. at i'm trying hard to differentiate what was real and what was not.
scary huh? and at the end of the day, i realised that i never really knew you at all. But it doesnt matter. =)

I am not mad nor am i very sad. I'm neither losing sleep nor crying because of a broken heart... Just feelin a lil more stonned then normal.
I cant say i'm heart borken-heart broken..its more like pure disappointment... I have never really felt this much of a disappointment in my life or with someone before. Dont know how i should deal with it thou, but i guess it'll just fade away within this week and its gonna be another lesson in life...
i shouldnt be so trusting anyway, thats my weakpoint .but somehow, after many incidents, i still have not learnt my lesson.
rawr!!!


oh well, all i can say is Shit happens.
and i'll deal with it.


enough of the emo yet not so emo shit.
Dragon boat outing on sat. wonder if i should go..i wld have to rush home from sentosa and meet viv and gang..
Dance starts next thurs and wakeboarding the week after next..
$$$$ fly away.... gotta work extra hard !
Bridging exams around the corner and my maths still cmi.

oh well. i'm off to work now.

ciaos!



left her thoughts ♥ 6:37:00 AM

Human beings are complicated by nature and I wouldn't deny that.
You wouldn't believe my profession. But I have a strong passion for what I do.
I'm not a great dancer but dancing its one of my only burning passion in life that keeps me going. =)

A petite girl who loves to socialise and have tons of fun!
I'm patient but don't try to test the limits.
Well,as long as you are not a weirdo,you're most welcomed to join my social circle.
*cheerios!!